Sometimes, we loose our creative spark. Mothers especially, are susceptible to this. We get so busy Life-ing (yes, I sometimes like to make up words), that we often find ourselves, one by one, setting our passions, and our creativity aside for the greater good of the family. Most of the time we don’t even really notice it, or even consider it to be a big deal to let it go, because mama’s are needed in so many capacities, that we let go of the parts of us that we deem expendable. Right?
Well, I challenge you to shift your perspective.
In what way are we doing our loved ones a service when we are steadily, willingly allowing ourselves to disappear into the shadows in order to put others the light? Is there not enough room for all of us to shine? Of course there is. Of course there is. But there is this expectation that we have to put everything down, or tuck everything away so that we can be looked at as good committed mothers, or partners. I call bullshit.
As a mother, we sometimes take for granted the complexities of our roles. We are mentors, we are teachers, we are role models, and we are so much more than the tiny societal boxes that we try to shove ourselves into.
The thing is, that if you are a creative, and of course, if you are breathing, you are a creative, we all are. If you are a creative, that is part of what makes you, you. It is where your passion lies. It is where your sexuality lies. It swirls up from your Sacral Chakra, and activates and amplifies every aspect of your life. How can you live without it?
Every single day that we put our creativity to the side for another day, and another, and another, we are allowing it to shrink more and more until one day we realize it is gone and we have no idea where we put it, nor do we know how to get it back.
When we loose it, without even noticing, things in our lives can begin to feel off. We may begin to feel unhappy, or unsettled, or trapped. We may have less energy, less patience, less compassion. We may feel like something is missing, but we don’t know what it is.
Am I speaking to you Ma?
So what to we do? We get it back. We seek out the reclamation of it as if our lives depend on it, because they do. But how? How do we get it back? Where do we search for it? Well, that depends on the individual. It is not a one size fits all kind of solution. What works for me is different than what may work for you, Drew and Peggy Sue. What we need to do, to begin this journey, is to get quiet with ourselves. I know, no time, kids need you, you’re tired, etc., but, the most important things in life are worth working hard for, and depending on how long it’s been, you may have your work cut out for you, but start somewhere, anywhere.
So get quiet with yourself and ask yourself where in your life were you expressing your creativity? What did it look like? In what way did you create? Was it writing, painting, making, dancing, coloring when you were 5? Was it through outlandish outfits? What was it? We all have it somewhere. Even if it seems small and unimportant, it doesn't matter, it's still relevant.
Then ask yourself how it felt when you were in your creative “zone”? When you find that feeling, cup it in your hands, and breathe some life into it again. No matter how small it is, it’s your spark, and you need it.
You need it like you need air to breathe.
You need it like a plant needs the sun to grow.
You need it.
Once you breathe the breath of life into it, you must keep it safe. You must protect it from growing dim again. So put it in your medicine pouch, store it in your womb, put it in your mouth and swallow it. I don’t care, just don’t let it go ever again. Then, every day, tap into it, and give it some love and attention. Nurture it as you would your baby, because it is that precious. This is going to take work, patience, and showing up for yourself and your infant even when you don’t feel like it, but I know you are capable, because you have done it before. Yes, you will loose sleep. Yes, it will be hard. Yes, some days you will feel unmotivated.
If I were to tell you that it is so incredibly worth it, would you believe me? It’s okay if you don’t. Actually, don’t believe me. Get out there and prove me wrong.
I double dog dare you.
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